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Tommy told me what happened

I really screwed up mum

Ok you made some mistakes

That’s an understatement

Who are you that you think you’re so important and superhuman that you’re the only one who could have saved the company??

But I didn’t save it did I? so...

Look, I know how badly you feel,

But you pushed me away, you pushed Tommy and Kevin away

It’s like you have to suffer alone

Like your disappointment is so much worse than ours

It’s not disappointment.

It’s shame.

I failed.

completely

I’m just trying to work out how I live with it

oh sweetheart

Sweetheart, I know what failure is, but as hard as it is I think you have to lean into those feelings

You haven’t had much failure in your life Sarah

It takes practice to get good at it

It hurts like holy hell

but it’s important.

It’s the door that will lead you to your future

I just don’t know how to do that