hopeless love

it's like you're screaming
and no one can hear.
You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important
that without them you feel like nothing.

no one'll ever understand how much it hurts.

You feel hopeless -
like nothing can save you.
And when it's over, and it's gone,
you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back
so that you could have the good.

I haven't seen a cloud for five days

and I've looked. from the ocean to the mountains.

currently listening to

Vivaldi - Violin Sonata in C RV3 Largo
Schubert - Piano Quintet in A Op. 114 D 667 'Trout' (especially the allegro vivace)
Bach - Violin Partita 3 in E BWV 1006 Preludio
Mozart - Violin Sonata in E Minor K 304 Tempo Di Minuetto


Tony Bennett & Lady Gaga - The Lady is a Tramp
Beyoncé & Luther Vandross - The Closer I Get to You
Whitney Houston & Lauryn Hill - I Was Made to Love Him
David Guetta ft. SIA - Titanium
Nicki Minaj ft. Rihanna - Fly
Jay Z & Kanye West ft. Beyoncé - Lift Off


Florence + the machine - Shake It Out

new beginnings

Oh honey

You gotta stop

Somehow you’ve got it in your head

that this is your story

but you gotta let that go

It’s time to come up with a whole new story for yourself

You are who you are

And the sooner that you’re ok with that –

The sooner that you see what I see -

The happier your gonna be

I swear to God


Hilda Suarez

currently listening to

No One Gonna Love You - Jennifer Hudson
Super Bass - Nicki Minaj
Massive Attack - Nicki Minaj
Work Out - J. Cole
Love you like a love song - Selena Gomez
How We Roll - Loick Essien ft. Tanya Lacey (WaWa Remix)
Motivation - Kelly Rowland
No Regrets - Dappy
(what is) LOVE? - J Lo
I Care - Beyonce
Countdown - Beyonce

A Little Bit Stronger - Sara Evans
You Lost Me - Christina Aguilera
Skyscraper - Demi Lovato

p a c i f i c o c e a n

The Moon
unidentifiable at first
thought it was the sun
until I saw the faint shadow of a rabbit

so low and so on the horizon of another night
above the ocean
cloudless
the constellations of trawlers and cruise ships mapped below mirrored the stars above

so bright
a whole universe of existence out across the water
and a flight load of travellers oblivious
shutters down, headphones in, screens glowing

I watched
out of my secretly raised window
the moon melt into a horizon that I couldn't define
like a knob of butter
like a bubble before it bursts
like a Tuscan bean dissolving

slowly

imperceptibly

and when I thought there was nothing left it would glow again, giving form
the pool of soft yellow light streak across one corner of that amazing world
from my tiny tiny window looking out on it all

I N D E P E N D E N C E

South Sudan is coming